The last couple weeks have been so crazy.
They have been so busy. More busy than I ever remember being before.
Which is probably good because there have also been some really rough days.
There was hitting two months without Clint. And then on April 21 it was a year from the day we first heard that word that changed our lives forever. Then our first Easter without him. And then Monday was my first birthday without him. It's all just really hard.

There are also so many great things that I need to blog about. But right now I am completely exhausted. I feel like all my posts have been so down lately. I really do think I'm doing alright most of the time. So I promise to try to post something fun and positive soon!
Thank you so much to all of you who are still keeping me and the boys in your thoughts and prayers. It is amazing the difference it makes in our lives. Love ya!

And just to tide you over here's a pic of my cute boys on one of our hikes in snow canyon over spring break...
Love these boys. They keep me going.

two months

Today has been pretty rough. I have been very emotional. It's really hard to think that it's only been two months. I feel like it's been forever since I was able to see his face. And it's very hard not knowing how many years it'll be before I will be able to see it again.
I miss him so much. Sometimes I feel like I can't breathe because I miss him so much.
It's hard to even go out some days because it's really hard seeing other couples together. It's also hard to watch TV because it just makes me think how unfair it is that he is not here to hold my hand, or hug me, or kiss me. Everything is just really hard.
I want to thank everyone for the thoughts, calls, texts, etc. today. It really helps me to know there are so many people who love me and my boys. Love you all!

A garage door that opens with the push of a button=
One happy Amy!!!

Tonight was rough.

I am really missing Clint.
The boys are really missing their dad.
Why did everything seem so much easier when he was here.