10 months...

I can't believe it's been that long. But I can't believe that it's only been that long. (I know I say that every month)

My thoughts and feelings are just so screwed up. Some moments it seems like he is just gone to work and will walk through the door any second. And then the next moment it will feel like it's been decades since I've seen his smile, or felt his touch. It can seriously change in a heartbeat. I still walk by his picture sometimes and think 'why are you not here, where are you' Of course I know where he is, but it just feels like he should still be here. I'm still not sure how we are surviving without him, but somehow we make it through the days.

I miss you sweetie! More than I could ever express!!


I have SO much to blog about but I've been seriously lacking motivation lately. These holidays are kind of throwing me for a loop, but I do need to give a shout out to the most amazing friends (you know who you are)! Without you we wouldn't have a decorated tree, let alone two, or all those presents underneath it. I would not survive without you!! And I definitely don't deserve you, but I hope you know how much I love you both! THANK YOU!!