Happy Birthday Sweetie

Happy Birthday to the most amazing man I have ever known.
I miss you more than I could ever say.
So do your boys. They keep saying things like "I really wish dad was here for his birthday".
Nothing is the same without you here. Even the good things aren't as good because you aren't here to share them with us.
I ate some of your moms pumpkin pie for you today. It made me sad.
It is really hard not to be mad on days like today.
You should be here. With me. With our boys.
I should be teasing you because you are SO old.
We should be eating pumpkin pie together.
I hate this.
I miss you.
I love you.

I really wish I could just close my eyes and wake up in March. I don't know if I can make it through the next few months without him. I really miss him.

Had such a fun night tonight!
And I'm so glad my boys are having so much fun hanging out with cousins this weekend.
But this house is really empty right now.
And it really sucks not having someone to come home too :(

'You never know the sacredness of a smile or laugh until you can't hear or see the one you most love'.
Feeling so alone.
Really wish I could just sleep.

Sea World

So on our second full day in San Diego we went to Sea World. It is definitely one of my favorite places in the world. It brought back a lot of memories of being there in January with Clint. It was a little hard but those are such good fun memories (his cowboy hat, getting soaked at the dolphin show, oh I miss him). So I didn't really take any good pictures at Sea World and sadly didn't get any with the Allens :( probably because 90% of the pictures I took that day didn't have people in them just animals, oops :)
Again prepare yourself for picture overload...

The boys at the dolphin show

Dolphin Show

Dolphin Show

One of the many aquariums

Nik

Noah & Nate (sorry about the crappy pic:)

Noah & Nate (who was being a brat and wouldn't turn around)

Nate, Nik, Noah with the beluga whales

Nate with the polar bear (his favorite animal!

Nate with polar bear #2

Nik with the polar bear

I love turtles

Shamu-My favorite thing about Sea World!

Shamu :)

Shamu

Shamu

Shamu

Nate, Nik, Noah with the penguins

Cheryl bought all the boys stuffed animals (and Abby got a super cute shirt). They LOVE them! (well at least I know my boys do:) I'm pretty sure they've slept with them every night. We love Grandma Cheryl! My boys thought it was so cool that she sat in all the splash zones with Brady.
Blake, Noah, Nate, Nik, Cheryl, Brady
We had so much fun! I wish we could do it everyday!
Travis & Michelle are you ready to go back yet?

Stay tuned for our day at the ocean.....

It's been 8 months today.
I really can't believe it's been that long. Time just keeps going even when I'm not sure I can.
I'm so lucky to have such amazing friends and family who help me stay semi sane :) And my boys who are still the reason I get out of bed every morning, love them so much!
So I guess we'll just keep going. One day at a time. Until we get to see him again.
Miss you sweetie!

LEGOLAND

We had such a great time in San Diego! I'm really wishing we could go back, especially since it's been freezing and raining ever since we came back home (it even snowed for a little bit at our house on Thursday:( I'm SO not ready for winter weather)
On Friday we met up with Travis, Michelle, Brady, Blake, Abby, and Cheryl (Travis' mom) at the hotel in La Jolla. We went out for a yummy dinner and went and walked around the temple. After that the kids wanted to go swimming, it wasn't super warm so they didn't last too long in the pool but they had fun!

The next day we went to Legoland. It was such a great place for the boys, they are the perfect age for it. They even told me more than once that they liked it more than disneyland!
So get prepared for a lot of pictures...

Here are all the kids with Darth Vader
Nate, Nik, & Brady on the log ride
Nik, Brady, & Blake went on this ship ride where they got soaked, mainly by Nate, Noah, & Abby who sprayed them from the sidelines :)
Noah, me, & Nate on a fun ride. This was like the tidal wave ride at lagoon except the ship turns sideways as well as goes back & forth.
Here is Travis, Abby, Brady, Blake, & Nik on the tidal wave ride
Here are the kiddos in front of Lego Las Vegas, it really was amazing to see all the things they did with legos
Travis and the boys went on this ride (think tea cups) Yeah us girls were smart and opted out of this one :)
Of course we had to get a picture with Lego Harry and Hagrid
Nik wanted a pic with Indiana Jones
And Noah had to have a picture with Bob the Builder :)
One of the boys favorite things at legoland was the lego cars. They loved it! They got a drivers license which they all thought was so cool. They got to drive all around a little lego city complete with stop lights and everything. So much fun!
Here is Brady
And Noah
And Nik
And Blake
And Nate
There was a big splash pad area which the kids played at forever
And of course they had to do the big slide

They had a bunch of fun halloween stuff around. Here they are with a silly scarecrow
And they got locked up...
Nik & Nate
Noah & Abby

Blake & Abby
Brady & Travis went on this crazy ride!
So did Blake (although he had a little less crazy level of ride :)
This is what Noah did every chance he got, if there was something around that could possibly be climbed on he was climbing on it!
Some other fun things we did there but didn't get any pictures of were... making lego pumpkins for the pumpkin patch, building and racing lego cars and going to the 'Brick or Treat' area where they got a bag full of goodies!
It was such a great day! The boys had such a fun time and have been playing with their legos non stop since we got home. Love it!