Thanksgiving

This Thanksgiving I have so much to be thankful for. Sometimes it's hard to think of the good things in my life because of the one huge thing that's not in it right now (at least not the way I want him in it). So I really needed to count my blessings today to remember how blessed I truly am...

I am so thankful for eternal families! I am thankful for my knowledge of the plan of salvation and the blessings of the temple. And especially for my Heavenly Father and my Savior, Jesus Christ.

I am so thankful for good friends! You know I wouldn't survive without you.

I am thankful for all the family, friends and even strangers who have gotten me through the last 19+ months. Your thoughts and prayers have held me up so many (well let's be honest, most) days. You will never know how much you truly mean to me.

I am so thankful for my three boys! You are the biggest blessing in my life. You each have a piece of your daddy in you that keeps him here with us everyday! I love that I see him every time I look at you!

Mostly, I am so thankful that I am sealed to such an amazing man! He taught me so much. He showed me what true love really is. He taught me about service and loving others (yes I know I am working on this one ;). He always made me feel so strong and like I was capable of anything. He showed me the kind of person I hope to be someday. I can't wait to spend forever with you sweetie! I love you!!

There are so many more things I am thankful for today. But I have a lot of rolls to make so I better go get started :) Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

9 months and I still miss you every second :( I love you sweetie!

Happy Birthday Sweetie

Happy Birthday to the most amazing man I have ever known.
I miss you more than I could ever say.
So do your boys. They keep saying things like "I really wish dad was here for his birthday".
Nothing is the same without you here. Even the good things aren't as good because you aren't here to share them with us.
I ate some of your moms pumpkin pie for you today. It made me sad.
It is really hard not to be mad on days like today.
You should be here. With me. With our boys.
I should be teasing you because you are SO old.
We should be eating pumpkin pie together.
I hate this.
I miss you.
I love you.

I really wish I could just close my eyes and wake up in March. I don't know if I can make it through the next few months without him. I really miss him.

Had such a fun night tonight!
And I'm so glad my boys are having so much fun hanging out with cousins this weekend.
But this house is really empty right now.
And it really sucks not having someone to come home too :(

'You never know the sacredness of a smile or laugh until you can't hear or see the one you most love'.
Feeling so alone.
Really wish I could just sleep.

Sea World

So on our second full day in San Diego we went to Sea World. It is definitely one of my favorite places in the world. It brought back a lot of memories of being there in January with Clint. It was a little hard but those are such good fun memories (his cowboy hat, getting soaked at the dolphin show, oh I miss him). So I didn't really take any good pictures at Sea World and sadly didn't get any with the Allens :( probably because 90% of the pictures I took that day didn't have people in them just animals, oops :)
Again prepare yourself for picture overload...

The boys at the dolphin show

Dolphin Show

Dolphin Show

One of the many aquariums

Nik

Noah & Nate (sorry about the crappy pic:)

Noah & Nate (who was being a brat and wouldn't turn around)

Nate, Nik, Noah with the beluga whales

Nate with the polar bear (his favorite animal!

Nate with polar bear #2

Nik with the polar bear

I love turtles

Shamu-My favorite thing about Sea World!

Shamu :)

Shamu

Shamu

Shamu

Nate, Nik, Noah with the penguins

Cheryl bought all the boys stuffed animals (and Abby got a super cute shirt). They LOVE them! (well at least I know my boys do:) I'm pretty sure they've slept with them every night. We love Grandma Cheryl! My boys thought it was so cool that she sat in all the splash zones with Brady.
Blake, Noah, Nate, Nik, Cheryl, Brady
We had so much fun! I wish we could do it everyday!
Travis & Michelle are you ready to go back yet?

Stay tuned for our day at the ocean.....